Once again, I’ll be using a coaching-inspired spread this week, drawing from Ellen Lorenzi-Prince’s Dark Goddess Tarot (Arnell Art, 2013). The acronym this time is QUEST:
- What is my QUEST? – Hag (King) of Water (Cups) – Ran
The booklet tells us that Ran is a Norse Goddess of the Drowned. The little catchphrase for her is: Surrender to the sea to find her secret places. We see a white-haired woman under the sea, her hands reaching up to a boat on the surface, and the white waves forming the shape of hands to drag sailors down. At the bottom of the sea lie sunken ships and a drowned figure sinks slowly towards the bed of the sea.
My quest this week is to seek emotional wisdom. This may not always be easy: it may require looking into some scary depths and letting go of some parts of myself.
Cybele is an Anatolian Mountain Mother, and her phrase is: Transcend boundaries through community. She sits upon a throne with mountains in the background and lions to either side of her. She is wearing a green dress representative of growth and nature, and a purple cape, sign of wisdom, as well as a red belt to suggest a touch of passion held carefully in check.
If I cannot find a sense of community that let’s me overcome boundaries, I will not be able to find that emotional wisdom. It is only in the presence of others that I can safely dive deep. I also see the idea that other people’s wisdom or structures won’t work for me. While I need other people, the wisdom I seek must be my own.
3) How can I ESCAPE that trap? – Hag (King) of Earth (Pentacles) – She Who Watches
This Goddess was a Chinook Stone Chief, and her phrase is: Remember history or more will be lost. She who watches is a huge red stone, in amongst many other stones. You can’t more grounded or earthy than that 😀
The message I get here is about remembering my own history, rather than general history. This card also points to staying in the moment, being truly present where I am, and staying practical and grounded. It also suggests leadership or responsibility. So, I must take responsibility for my history, and for my current experience of the realities of life, rather than accepting other people’s dogma (The Hierophant).
4) What is my next STEP? – XXI – The World – Coatlicue
Coatlicue is an Aztec Mother of Creation. Her sentence reads: A single manifestation holds a multitude of being. We see this bare-breasted Goddess standing with her palms held out to us, fingers up. Her palms are blue, and she wears a golden crown. Her skirt is made of snakes, and two more writhe around her head. Behind her is a red circle, perhaps representative of time, or the bloods of creation. Reading a bit more of her mythos, she represents both the womb and the grave. Lots of myths include great battles between her children, and Coatlicue herself being sacrificed by having her head chopped off!
My next step is to recognise the different aspects of life, that things don’t have to be simple or perfect or nice. Life is hard, and that is part of its joy. Sacrifice is sometimes necessary, part of the natural cycle.
5) How can I TELL if I’m on the right path? – Witch (Queen) of Air (Swords) – Oya
Oya is a Santeria Goddess associated with the Whirlwind. The phrase Ellen Lorenzi-Prince chose for her is: Tear the veil between the worlds, and anything can happen. I love the image here. A dark-skinned woman in a white dress with colourful ribbons hanging from her waist spins around, creating the whirlwind.
I love Oya, she is a Goddess I call on often. Her energy can be quite destructive, but extremely cleansing – she sweeps away the cobwebs and makes way for new ideas and thoughts. Although it is emotional wisdom I seek, it must also be rational and clear. I will be able to see if I am on the right path if I can clear out old blocks and prejudices.
This morning, I was reading “A Squash and a Squeeze” to my Little One. The basic moral is that you should be happy with what you have, grateful, as life could always be worse. I don’t really like it much.
As the mother of a severly disabled child, sure things could be worse. However, it’s also fair to feel sad at times. And I cannot feel grateful that this happened to my Big Boy. I can feel grateful for his cheeky smile, for his enjoyment of life, for his love of school, for the cuddles and the ‘chats’ and the play. But I cannot feel grateful that he got ill and suffered brain damage, for all that he will never be able to do, and for the pain that he suffers every day.
This week, then, I can seek a bit more emotional clarity around this, in the presence of others, but honouring my own lived experience. The World has come up for me quite often in the past around my son’s condition. Yes, it is a blessing and a curse, and we can grow from it, even if it will never be over and never be perfect. If I can sweep away some of the emotional hurts from the past and be clear in my own mind about where we are headed, I’ll be on the right path.
To read journal prompts based on these cards, click here.